Monday, January 05, 2004
Pay it Forward
Instructions:
1. Copy this whole list into your journal.
2. Bold the things that you have in common with me.
3. Whatever you don't bold, replace with things about you.
01. I have made bad decisions...
02. And I have a few big regrets. But hardly any small ones.
03. I hold grudges against both my self and others. And they last a long time.
04. I want to be good at something.
05. I just want to be happy.
06. i know most people don't; and never will understand. but i'm ok with that. -but it doesn't stop me from trying over and over to explain.
07. i have rarely played video games, and I am horrible at them.
08. I dream too much. I dream when I'm awake.
09. i think people need to find the balance between thinking of themselves, and taking care of those around them.
10. I believe that abortion is always a death. And always wrong.
11. Except when it is a choice between the life of the mother or the child- and then it is up to the mother.
12. Sometimes I wish I could stay in one moment forever.
13. I have a strong connection to momentos and gifts as little bits of my past.
14. I like to hold/pet/grab/tumble/hug/lay on/and otherwise touch people. Because I like to feel comfortable and close to them. Elise is the most fun because she purrs.
15. I wish I had more to give.
16. I would like to be someone else for a day, just to see how other people think.
17. I'm curious of what other people think of me. but it rarely bothers me. ... really, really curious.
18. I have a lot to learn.
19. I don't believe that crying in front of anyone is a sign of weakness. and I wish i could do it.
20. I believe in love at first sight, but I don't believe in marrying anyone you've known less than two years.
21. I think you can love who someone is with all your heart, and not love a life lived with them.
22. I wish I could better express outside my writing what I think and inside too sometimes.
23. I need to clean my bedroom.
24. I love dressing up
25. I can only really speak when I am writing. or in a mood.
26. I love music for telling a story or a feeling. As entertainment it's much less important to me than to most people.
27. I love listening to music. I love MAKING music too.
28. I'm more romantic than I let on; I dream of someone who can love me for what I am, what I'm not, and what I could be, someone who knows that they cannot complete me because I'm complete by myself, someone who is as stubborn as I am and will not only let me lean on them when I need it, but will lean on me when they need it. (well said darling)
29. I've had romantic Ideals since I can remember, and most have tragic endings.
30. I love someone who can keep a conversation with me
31. Had they lived, Romeo's attentions would wander and Juliet would feel rejected and become bitter. They a wonderful example of the idiocy and exuberance of young love.
32. I love Ophelia. She is my tragic ideal. Poetic, in love, torn, and mourned for. I can't help but think of her as stronger on the inside.
33. I procrastinate. A lot.
34. I can miss someone who's only a few feet away.
35. Jonjon is one of my ideals. Natalie should recall him.... I was afraid to get to know him, lest he fail.
36. I enjoy winning arguments with a flourish
37. I hate when people intentionally hurt another person. (but sometimes you have to be cruel to be kind...)
38. One of the worst feelings to me is being lonely.
39. Sometimes I speak my mind when I shouldn't. and sometimes i dont when I should.
40. I am a very good loser, unless you are a bad winner. Bad winners make me bitter.
41. I tend to have a hard time of letting go of people.
42. I try to keep people further away than I should
43. I wish I had someone who would hold me.
44. I love when I make people smile.
45. Sometimes I have too much energy, sometimes I don't have enough.
46. I tend to see the best in myself, doubt everyone else, then start to doubt myself too.
47. I have cried myself to sleep before. More than once. Many times.
48. I make excuses
49. I DEFINITELY believe in ghosts.
50. I believe in life after death.
51. I enjoy differences.
52. In fourth grade I once told someone that my favourite food was cheese.
53. I believe sometimes you can say a lot without ever saying a word, and
54. I believe it's that kind of talking that says the most.
55. I want to be so much a part of someone that I know exactly what to make for breakfast on a sleepy, rainy sunday morning and what suprises them best; and they know which tea to bring at night and that it's alright to sit on my feet so that I move.
56. I'm not scared of snakes.
57. I love knives, pretty knives- and daggers and swords and rapiers...&tc.
58. I believe in Karma
59. I like silence sometimes.
60. I want a dog, but not until I own a house.
61. I love cats.
62. I think that "Cats for company, Dogs for a friend" adage is mostly true.
63. I think its worth trying to change the world, no matter how little impact I make.
64. I do not care if you are gay, but if you want a Gay pride parage then I want a Straight Pride parade. Because it shouldn't matter.
65. I am just me.
66. I'm happy when some people accomplish their goals.
67. I would give anything to stop feeling sometimes.
68. I wish I cared more
69. I can be really selfish at times
70. I want to be able(if called upon) to take a bullet for someone. But although I would try to save them, I dont think I could be so selfless.
71. I'm not married.
72. I can't give up on some things even when I know I should.
73. I am an utter packrat.
74. I am too cynical.
75. I believe that racism is racism and the word has become twisted by politics.
76. I tend to be too literal and too convoluted at same time.
77. Political Correctness is the first and a very large step towards communism.
78. I often doubt myself.
79. i WILL be famous
80. at least in my world...
81. Equality does not mean that there will be equal divisions, just equal opportunity. Anything else is a lie and a detrement to the system.
82. I want some one who actually likes to discuss things beyond their own life.
83. i believe lust and love are both perfectly healthy. i believe it is what we do with these feelings that makes them unhealthy.
84. i always want to learn more about sex. it's fun to be a library on the subject when someone doesnt expect it.
85. I have days where I hate everything I am. (but not often)
86. I have days when I am grumpy and bitchy and depressed and inside I am very suprised by my actions.
87. Just because i am not smiling does not mean I am sad. And vice versa. I frown when I am lost in thoughts and wonderment and smile when i daydream. But I smile when Im sad becasue I don't want to be noticed. Being noticed usually means someone will want to know why. If I am cheerful but listless then you should worry.
88. There are times when I feel the need to be hugged.
89. I've been known to spotaneously give people a push.
90. I really hate touching anyone I dislike.
91. I'm scared of letting down those I love. (but mostly i'm scared of letting myself down.)
92. I wish I could do more stand up for what I believe in.
93. I want to be an activist one day.
94. I still want to be eccentric when i grow up.
95. I smile at sad memories sometimes.
96. I have faith in alot of things...
97. I have impure thoughts.
98. I watch people. And take mental notes. I forget the notes but the first impression remains. Therefore I like and dislike people for reasons I often don't recall.
99. most people haven't a clue what i'm capable of. i'm not as naiive as you think....
100. I love it when people tell me they love me. (i love it more when they mean it...)
-- G 'Bye, Sonya -- . ( 5.1.04 ) .
Instructions:
1. Copy this whole list into your journal.
2. Bold the things that you have in common with me.
3. Whatever you don't bold, replace with things about you.
01. I have made bad decisions...
02. And I have a few big regrets. But hardly any small ones.
03. I hold grudges against both my self and others. And they last a long time.
04. I want to be good at something.
05. I just want to be happy.
06. i know most people don't; and never will understand. but i'm ok with that. -but it doesn't stop me from trying over and over to explain.
07. i have rarely played video games, and I am horrible at them.
08. I dream too much. I dream when I'm awake.
09. i think people need to find the balance between thinking of themselves, and taking care of those around them.
10. I believe that abortion is always a death. And always wrong.
11. Except when it is a choice between the life of the mother or the child- and then it is up to the mother.
12. Sometimes I wish I could stay in one moment forever.
13. I have a strong connection to momentos and gifts as little bits of my past.
14. I like to hold/pet/grab/tumble/hug/lay on/and otherwise touch people. Because I like to feel comfortable and close to them. Elise is the most fun because she purrs.
15. I wish I had more to give.
16. I would like to be someone else for a day, just to see how other people think.
17. I'm curious of what other people think of me. but it rarely bothers me. ... really, really curious.
18. I have a lot to learn.
19. I don't believe that crying in front of anyone is a sign of weakness. and I wish i could do it.
20. I believe in love at first sight, but I don't believe in marrying anyone you've known less than two years.
21. I think you can love who someone is with all your heart, and not love a life lived with them.
22. I wish I could better express outside my writing what I think and inside too sometimes.
23. I need to clean my bedroom.
24. I love dressing up
25. I can only really speak when I am writing. or in a mood.
26. I love music for telling a story or a feeling. As entertainment it's much less important to me than to most people.
27. I love listening to music. I love MAKING music too.
28. I'm more romantic than I let on; I dream of someone who can love me for what I am, what I'm not, and what I could be, someone who knows that they cannot complete me because I'm complete by myself, someone who is as stubborn as I am and will not only let me lean on them when I need it, but will lean on me when they need it. (well said darling)
29. I've had romantic Ideals since I can remember, and most have tragic endings.
30. I love someone who can keep a conversation with me
31. Had they lived, Romeo's attentions would wander and Juliet would feel rejected and become bitter. They a wonderful example of the idiocy and exuberance of young love.
32. I love Ophelia. She is my tragic ideal. Poetic, in love, torn, and mourned for. I can't help but think of her as stronger on the inside.
33. I procrastinate. A lot.
34. I can miss someone who's only a few feet away.
35. Jonjon is one of my ideals. Natalie should recall him.... I was afraid to get to know him, lest he fail.
36. I enjoy winning arguments with a flourish
37. I hate when people intentionally hurt another person. (but sometimes you have to be cruel to be kind...)
38. One of the worst feelings to me is being lonely.
39. Sometimes I speak my mind when I shouldn't. and sometimes i dont when I should.
40. I am a very good loser, unless you are a bad winner. Bad winners make me bitter.
41. I tend to have a hard time of letting go of people.
42. I try to keep people further away than I should
43. I wish I had someone who would hold me.
44. I love when I make people smile.
45. Sometimes I have too much energy, sometimes I don't have enough.
46. I tend to see the best in myself, doubt everyone else, then start to doubt myself too.
47. I have cried myself to sleep before. More than once. Many times.
48. I make excuses
49. I DEFINITELY believe in ghosts.
50. I believe in life after death.
51. I enjoy differences.
52. In fourth grade I once told someone that my favourite food was cheese.
53. I believe sometimes you can say a lot without ever saying a word, and
54. I believe it's that kind of talking that says the most.
55. I want to be so much a part of someone that I know exactly what to make for breakfast on a sleepy, rainy sunday morning and what suprises them best; and they know which tea to bring at night and that it's alright to sit on my feet so that I move.
56. I'm not scared of snakes.
57. I love knives, pretty knives- and daggers and swords and rapiers...&tc.
58. I believe in Karma
59. I like silence sometimes.
60. I want a dog, but not until I own a house.
61. I love cats.
62. I think that "Cats for company, Dogs for a friend" adage is mostly true.
63. I think its worth trying to change the world, no matter how little impact I make.
64. I do not care if you are gay, but if you want a Gay pride parage then I want a Straight Pride parade. Because it shouldn't matter.
65. I am just me.
66. I'm happy when some people accomplish their goals.
67. I would give anything to stop feeling sometimes.
68. I wish I cared more
69. I can be really selfish at times
70. I want to be able(if called upon) to take a bullet for someone. But although I would try to save them, I dont think I could be so selfless.
71. I'm not married.
72. I can't give up on some things even when I know I should.
73. I am an utter packrat.
74. I am too cynical.
75. I believe that racism is racism and the word has become twisted by politics.
76. I tend to be too literal and too convoluted at same time.
77. Political Correctness is the first and a very large step towards communism.
78. I often doubt myself.
79. i WILL be famous
80. at least in my world...
81. Equality does not mean that there will be equal divisions, just equal opportunity. Anything else is a lie and a detrement to the system.
82. I want some one who actually likes to discuss things beyond their own life.
83. i believe lust and love are both perfectly healthy. i believe it is what we do with these feelings that makes them unhealthy.
84. i always want to learn more about sex. it's fun to be a library on the subject when someone doesnt expect it.
85. I have days where I hate everything I am. (but not often)
86. I have days when I am grumpy and bitchy and depressed and inside I am very suprised by my actions.
87. Just because i am not smiling does not mean I am sad. And vice versa. I frown when I am lost in thoughts and wonderment and smile when i daydream. But I smile when Im sad becasue I don't want to be noticed. Being noticed usually means someone will want to know why. If I am cheerful but listless then you should worry.
88. There are times when I feel the need to be hugged.
89. I've been known to spotaneously give people a push.
90. I really hate touching anyone I dislike.
91. I'm scared of letting down those I love. (but mostly i'm scared of letting myself down.)
92. I wish I could do more stand up for what I believe in.
93. I want to be an activist one day.
94. I still want to be eccentric when i grow up.
95. I smile at sad memories sometimes.
96. I have faith in alot of things...
97. I have impure thoughts.
98. I watch people. And take mental notes. I forget the notes but the first impression remains. Therefore I like and dislike people for reasons I often don't recall.
99. most people haven't a clue what i'm capable of. i'm not as naiive as you think....
100. I love it when people tell me they love me. (i love it more when they mean it...)
-- G 'Bye, Sonya -- . ( 5.1.04 ) .